14 years

This post is about discipline, not content, which will be entirely spontaneous and brief.

Yesterday was my partners and my 14 year anniversary - an impressive feat considering we are 31 and 32 - both each others one and only. I don't mean to brag or to seem sickeningly naive, but ours is my favourite love story of all! It's an odd thing to receive congratulations on the 'achievement' as though it is something we have toiled towards when, in all honesty, I can say it has never been a struggle, not for a second.

I intended to make a card (but life intervened in the form of a farewell encounter with a departing friend) and to that end, trawled the internet for an appropriate 'love quote'. The search not only sickened me but also obviated the recurring theme of 'love' being something fragile in need of nuturing, attention and hard work. I feel beyond lucky, even 'blessed' for want of a much better word, to be encompassed in this robust, self perpetuating force which seems genuinely rare.

We went out for a fancy dinner to a french restaurant - it was very authentic and made us long to be back in Paris. I felt myself being aware of the fact that we were/are still generating new memories, that after 14 years, it still feels like the beginning of a great adventure.

I'm sure I'll return to the topic of relationships in the future because I'm so often perplexed by them but for now, I'm looking forward to going to bed (after another night out: for my baby sister's birthday - she's 27 tomorrow, it's so strange that she should be so old that the number is meaningless).

I'll leave you with the random thought: the irony of Sudoku is that the people who got on the bandwagon did so claiming it was to sharpen their minds, but somehow the attraction to it only served to show how dull their minds really are.

Well, that went well!

Well, that went well! I can't believe its over a year since I wrote that entry, so full of resolve and inspiration for the big experiment in staying still! I was going to say that the results have been disappointing but that's not entirely true, no need to be totally self-deprecating - they say if you reach for the moon, even if you fall short, you'll still reach the stars or some such thing. To continue the analogy, I definitely feel that I thrust myself back into a bustling solar system where chaos theory is the order of the day. My only complaint would be the lack of gravity! The stars of the show? My family and friends. Actually, I'll be bold and say that the latter has been a little lack-lustre where the former has been absolutely stellar, especially in the form of my nephew - at times I suspect I'm totally in orbit around him!

I could go on and won't. I'll simply state my intention: to develop the discipline of writing regularly. I have no intended audience and no plans to share this with anyone specific (which begs the question, why publish it? I don't know!). I want to hone my writing skills before I totally lose faith in them. No doubt I'll drivel on at length about things that are of no interest to anyone but that's part of my challenge, to be decisive about what I write.

That's all for now, time for coffee and more emails.